Going Postal?

The post office seems to be a place where I get to learn a lot about myself… 

I tend to NEED whatever piece of transformational jewelry I am wearing that day if I have to be there for anything more than a quick ‘drop’ of a package. In fact a big part of my shipping and handling process was specifically designed so that I would not need to wait in line or spend any more time than necessary there. The post office is one of my nemeses.

Today was no different…and had I remembered to use my own process and look at the Courage Faith Trust Love ring I was wearing it would have helped tremendously. Sometimes I do remember, this time I forgot.

I had a ‘package’ notice in my PO Box, so I got in the line for the Information window where they hold package for pickup. Several people were waiting in line and I didn’t have much time, but decided I would stick it out as didn’t want try again tomorrow. I was waiting my turn when a woman walked up alongside the line and grabbed a form and started filling it out at the window next to the Information window. My radar went up as I got the sense that she intended to ‘cut the line’. Almost as quick as my mind went there, I told myself to let it go, that she was probably just filling out the form and it wouldn’t be a big deal.

Well, as soon as she had the chance, she grabbed the woman behind the Information window and started asking her what to do with the form, the woman helped her, didn’t pay attention to where she’d come from, and then told her to stay where she was to talk to the second woman serving the line. When she turned around I asked, “Do you think you could wait in line with the rest of us? This is just a 30 second thing too…” holding up my package form, in as nice a tone as I could muster given my aggravation and irritation. To my surprise she replied, “Sure,” and smiled. She stayed put though, not joining the rest of the line. When the second woman became available I handed her my package form and in less than 30 seconds was out the door.

It’s kind of a non-descript experience, but it kept bothering me, coming back into my mind over and over as I walked to my next destination. I was listening to Abraham-Hicks on my iPod and the woman asking a question of Abraham was talking about their technique of Pivoting (see Ask And It Is Given or Money and the Law of Attraction for more information on Pivoting). She said that when she feels negative emotion she stops and asks herself what she wants, so I asked myself, feeling frustrated and also bad about the way I handled the situation (why can’t I just ‘rise above’ and let it go?? What else could I have said?? ), what I really wanted. The answer that came back was, “for people to be fair.” I chewed on that for a while, but it felt really whiney and just not quite on target.

As I continued listening, the next questioner came up and Abraham began a discussion about ‘the story behind the story’ so I started to ask myself what the story behind the story of, “I want people to be fair,” was. The answer that came back was not necessarily what I expected, but as I thought about it, made a lot of sense. The ‘story behind the story’ is that I don’t feel worthy. It’s something many of us are familiar with, something I’ve been working on here and there, but not with any real consistent effort, and it appears that there could be a big payoff from that effort. My life could be transformed; my stress and frustration levels tremendously reduced and my interactions with everyone could change if I understood my true value and worth.

So, I will start to spend more time aware of that sensation, notice where it is coming from, and gently guiding myself back to a place of understanding that I have inherent worth. I do not need to be, do or have anything to prove it, other people don’t have to behave a certain way for me to know it. I just get to know it, deep in my gut, that in the eyes of Source, I have worth.

What if I just assume that I have worth, that I am important? I imagine that every interaction I have with another person would be enhanced, that I would be able to give of myself openly and freely as I wouldn’t be seeking some kind of approval or valuation. To me the Dalai Lama is an embodiment of this. It is certainly something worth striving for.

I was listening to a recording of one of their seminars in August of 2008. If you would like to listen to their recordings you can start with some free videos and audios at www.Abraham-Hicks.com